love is a piano dropped out a four story window

you know.
maybe there wont be so much drama once i move.
people ..*wont mention names* complain that i dont call them.
or complain that they dont see me.
but seriously, ive fucking tried calling.
is it my fault that you dont wanna talk?
and im not the only one with a phone.
and i actually answer my phone.
so why is all the responsibility of hanging out,
and calling, and talking ALL ON ME.
when i dont hear you calling me.

yea.
just go hang out with your oh so great friends.
considering i know that one of them used to talk shit about you all the time.
but theyre cooler right?
right.

i hope you have a wonderful , long life.
and i hope that once im not here anymore.
youll actually remember the times we once had.
and the friends we once were.

but apparently that changed somehow.
considering one day i sign online and see ive been deleted from everything.
nice.
fucking nice.

blah.



anyways, this weekend we're moving into my dad and stepmoms.
and im busy cleaning and packing.
so i dont know when ill get back to writing in here.
but ill see ya around.

whoever keeps calling my cell and talking shit, you need to fucking stop
get a fucking life.
5 fucking times this persons called within 10 min.
geesus christ.

just in case i didnt state this earlier,

brandons moving back down here.
and moving in.


im excited.
so yea. im going friday to take my written test.
ill pass. its so easy.

and then ill make an appointment for my behind the wheel really soon.
yay.
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im happy.
i have been for a while.
:)

i didnt fucking want you.
it was all a lie.
i thought it would help cover up the deep love i had for brandon still
but it didnt.

i regret ever talking to you again
EVER..

you just brought more drama into my life that i didnt need.
and im done with that.


i love brandon. i have for over two years. and hes the only fucking person , in this entire world, that i wanna be with. and thats the fucking truth.

and i dont need ANYTHING or ANYONE screwing this up.

later.

i love anonymous shit talking. its so..(im using angies favorite word right here) pathetic. but whatev. it makes me laugh so thanks.;)

i got my flip phone finally. haha@that.

mitch came over. i like him. ..as a FRIEND> dont go thinking dirty pervs. we have soooooo much in common its crazy. hes one cool motherfucker .

i went out with sarah today. bought my daddy a fathers day gift. ill be getting something for brandon. ill send it to him. cause im nice like that.

i should be getting my license within a month. so im going to go all crazy and be like YAYYYYYYYYYyy. sorry.

i.want.you.to.want.me.
you=my babys daddy.



its true:\
i miss you lovebirds<3

angies over here. and she fixed my voicemail for tonight. you should all call me right now just to listen to it. if you dont have my number, IM me on aim:itzeebitzeespdr. and ask me for it. it rocks.

um.yes

even though todays not saturday, shes still my bitch.hahah


<3333
my friend mitch is coming to visit. cooolness

i went swimming saturday. didnt get burned.
went swimming sunday. now im super red. and it hurts.

i have a headache right now.

my friend mitch is coming to see me on saturday. hes a a funny guy. i want to go on a road trip like him someday. visit all my friends. that would be grand i say.GRAND

hopefully ill get to seee a movie with sarah tomorrow. that would be cool.

im tired. and i want a ciggarette.

my life is boring and that is all.

i know i havent updated in a while. but im here now so go suck a fuck;)


theres still a chance for me and brandon.....
thats all you really need to know right now

im doing ok
hannahs growing in her 3rd tooth.

and krystals coming out here this weekend.

so yay.
miss me?
you COULD always call..

im in the new place.

its nice





Brandons 11 hours away.

and im alone

oh well

kbye

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im on my moms computer.
we'll be in our new place saturday.
wont have computer for awhile.
not like you care.
but its ok.

mymothers day was good.
i got this big ass coffee cup from angie.
and pink and black flowers from sarah (<3)
and stuff from when my parents went to vegas.

i dont even know if i miss the computer.

but i do miss brandon.
bye.

OH.:\


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i didnt upload ALL the pics to photobucket.lame because i wasnt about to upload 80 muthaphuckin pictures . so deal.:)


ill show you some of me. and then some from our trip.


( 4 of me )

these next are just a few from the trip. i have LOTS LOTS more. but these are the best i think. krystal and angie(insertslaphere) are two of my bestest friends. we had a blast. so many quotes. so many laughs. so much fun

( 10 of the trip )

thats all folks.
hope you enjoyed the show.

p.s.
we found the apartment we're moving into. we'll be in there around the 15-20th. its about 10 min from here. not too far.

. no more computer after thursday night. not for a LONG time . ill try using my moms though..

and brandons leaving friday at 10:30am .:(. the day BEFORE what wouldve been our 2 year anniversary. im going to cry when i say goodbye. cause its like REALLLy saying goodbye this time:(

bye<3

no more lurking for you;D

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anything.
Post a story, a secret, a confession, a fear, a love - anything.

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have fun:)

hah. omfg.9@#%$@klsdjfas me and brandon had sex today;D.lol. i know you could prolly care less but ive been wanting it for a long time so im really happy;D..
um.okew.

i went with Sarah to the mall tonight to get some flip flops because i couldnt find any when i went out with my mom today. so i went inside old navy because i knew they would have some there, and bought a white pair. score. .. before me and sarah went to the mall, we stopped at jamba juice and got ourselves a smoothie. yum. ..when we came back to my house my mom said " i want a joo joo bee too".lol. ..me: " wat the hell is a joo joo bee?. we didnt buy candy;D".. my moms such a nerd sometimes;)..

Sarah left a lil later and i talked to Ester for a bit online. ok yea. shes coming out here tomorrow daytime;D.and she has to stay til late until traffic isnt traffic anymore;D. which means i get a whole lot of ester. " can you handle it?". ew;D.

*i took pics because the cam is finally working on this comp again. so yea. * ( ew. )

i watched One Hour Photo tonight. my mom rented the DVD and i wanted to see it. kinda phreaky movie. but i felt bad for Sy. hes such a lonely guy. that would suck:(. eh.

alrighty.. i dont really have anything else to talk about so im going to go do nothing online. toodles;D

Sarah came over last night around 1am. we talked for a while. stupid BOYS;(...

im going shopping with mom today. gotta get more purple eyeshadow and an eyelash curler because mine broke. blah..i also have to get some flip flops. joy. ;D

i get $20 for tomorrow.;Dscore!. hopefully Ester will bring her camera this time .lol;D

alrighty.ill leave you with that one popular month quiz that everyone seems to be taking. ;)

( true )

( look at the girl with the big ol' belly.;D )

im bored and tired. im laying down. later

this is why im glad im with Brandon and no longer having to deal with dating idiots.....

um.bye